Super Reality check
Just yesterday, my super girlfriend gave me a super confession. She told me that she almost cheated on me during the weekend while I was locked in my room going over recordings made on my Super Revolution.
Where is my appetite?
I was about to have some chow when she broke the disappointing news to me. As you can guess, I'm still looking for my appetite. I must confess, I felt super disappointed by what she was feeling. Who wouldn't be?
Not a bitch
In the past I would have called her a bitch, but I swear I don't blame her. In my eyes she is still an honourable woman because she told me the truth. She knows there's nothing that I hate more than a person who lies, to me. Being a fool is when they do it behind your back.
Selfish nature
Why should I blame this woman for a nature that we all have? I mean I have been in her situation before, where I was tempted to violate what we have by sharing it with someone else without her knowledge. So it's only fair to put myself in her shoes. It is human nature to forget the good things you have and to seek other things, although the consequences might be what you were not looking for when doing what you did. There are evil forces that run our human nature, sometimes we can't help it.
Adopted by poetry
Because I am a poet, I have always contemplated this type of situation. I have always thought that we are selfish, no matter what we try to be. It is unfair to ask a person to be selfless. It is bullshit. I won't ask my woman to be selfless – although I will be hurt by her selfishness. I only wish we could be selfish of our relationships, that we don't want anything to destroy them. I guess this is too ideal for the world we live in. Wow, I feel better already. I think my appetite is returning. So, here's the poem I wrote a time ago when me and the super lady broke up. It's all about why we cheat on our soul-mates for god's sakes.
I Chose Me Over You
(For my Beloved Ribelady, my ex soul mate)
In the bleed of confusing affection
A twelve round knock-out blow by blow with myself
I woke up, smelled the coffee
And knew I loved me more than you
Coz in dear truth, I’ll do for me, even what is hurting to you
Provoking ancient angers from the Hades of your heart
I abandoned ideals and followed my passions
To temporary greener pastures
Leaving you in complete wonder
While in the dear truth, I had chosen me over you
When I knelt before my hormones
Disregarding your feelings like a priest cussing in anger en route to heaven
When I went DNA, path of my genes
Took my role and acted impulsively, unfaithfully, individually
Obeying thirsts of my own sexuality
It wasn’t no Lucifer that seduced me
Trust me, it wasn’t the liquor, it wasn’t the drugs
It wasn’t a mistake
It was the choice
When I chose me over you
Apologies may flutter human ego
A bunch of mutilated roses may flirt with human naiveté
A love poem may spark human fires
Like a happy pill sending a junky perky
The make-up kiss may taste like waters of champagne
The touch you missed may feel like winter in cosy paradise
But in dear truth
I chose me over you
Love of my life, love of my death
In every pardonable wrong I do against you
I choose me over you
And faithfully, you do you over me
-4kof Satan
When last did you pray? What did he say?
3 comments:
Oooh, girls never tell. She's very brave I can tell u. Maybe she's lucky she has a man who understands... My boyfriend wud freak, that's why I keep all the juicy details between myself and closest friends.
But I do admit it's bad. lyk u said we can't help it if we fell that way, it's nature. well, good luck with her in the future, I doubt if she wud tell when she finally does it withh another brother
yeah, they say chicks only report to boyfriend the gorillas they don't like and keep the godzillas for their own private indulgence. Me, I would be skeptical if i had a woman and she comes and tells me that because otherwise she should be telling me everyday as temptation is a shadow that we travel with all the time. Will she tell you when she finally does it? Will she tell you when she comes to cheating with your best friend? These are questions you should ask her
Eish, you remind me of a saying by DR Phil, who heard this from his father, who heard it from... He says "For every rat that you see, there's 49 more you don't see. However, I think at times we men must accept our helplessness. You see, I cannot accuse her of keeping the 49 when I have not seen them; those are allegations and you know the courts don't mind hearing a law suit against those who accuse others. Since I am in a fucking pool of ignorance, I prefer to give her the benefit of the doubt. Some have said that Assumption is a mother of all fuck ups. While we cannot rule out the fact that she might be guilty of crimes I know not of - we must keep in mind that I know not of them. So, I am not in any way in a position to judge. I am a Mafia, and I know how I fight such battles as this one. Give a dog enough rope - or the rats poisoned cheese, whatever that means.
My heart goes out to all those who still want to love. It's not a child's play, but love does turn people into children, at least emotionally so. For now I will let lying dogs sleep coz I honestly can't jump into the wagon with the next ho expecting that she be tight. We choose ourselves over those whom we love, it's the way it goes I guess. Let me go blaze me a joint, can't harness the jealousy that made many overreact.
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