Men are stupid, and you better take notice

I stand before you naked

The best play that I've ever watched in my life is, “I stand before you naked.” I don't think I'll ever be as blown away by a play like I was by I stand before you naked, which I watched at the then Pretoria Technikon in 2003. In the same breath I stand before you naked. I want to tell the truth about why my girlfriend broke it up with me. Let's get right into it: I was best lacking in TC. I was unromantic towards her and the worst boyfriend you could ever think of. But honestly, I had my reasons.

Let us reason together

According to the bible, it's good top reason together with God, but women just aren't God. You can never reason with them. I never really told my girlfriend that she made me insecure, but she did. And today I'm willing to stand before the whole blogosphere naked. I want you to understand how deep insecurity can cut through the life of a man. I'm not afraid to say that I am insecure, because my observation has shown me that all me are insecure. The word insecure means, Not Sure, or Not Secured. All men feel unprotected and vulnerable to the dangers of life. But the most strongest point of insecurity is at the interval of relations with the female species. All men feel insecure when it comes to their women. We are never sure if they really love us, if our romantic investment is protected in them. We are never sure if she is being faithful to us or whether our Queen is giving cake to other Kings. Now what's the use of investing everything in someone who doesn't think you are worth the respect? As a result, men are always acting jealous, moody, overprotective. It's all insecurity. No matter how much money you have, no matter how much confidence you have, you can never be too sure with your woman. All men know that deep in their hearts of hearts. The garden boy can always poke your princess, worse others can know about it and you become a fool when bring flowers while they are laughing behind your back.

My wife

Well, I used to love her more than anything I could ever think of. Until she doubted my love while it was at its best. I decided never to really show such kind of love ever again. I was hurt. Worse I felt stupid coz I spoke about her everywhere I went. She was the woman in my life. But when she questioned my love, after speaking to my ex, I so it a waste to love someone who doesn't notice it. Then one day she told my sister that maybe she should have never dumped her ex for me, that I wasted her time and I was a liar. That's why my sister has never liked our relationship because she thought I loved her too much while she mused over her past love. It hurt me. I felt like a fool. We broke, got back together. And then one day her ex showed me a message that she had written him. I was hurt. Mind you all these hurting feelings were seeds of pain being planted. The more I hurt the more I lost care, but couldn't let go of her. Then she continued to make put fuel on the fire of my insecurity. She would every now and then show interest in my friends, asking me how they were doing, what they were doing. And interest which Jay Z says, “The bitch is always checking your homeys/ A sister says you better check your homeys” Now, she didn't sound like a sister to me. Everytime a partner shows interest in other people, they create insecurity because this suggests less interest in you. That wasn't it. Even this year, she would tell me that she saw this man and he was so fine, blah blah. The other day, I had visited her and we were sitting at a corner street. This other six-pack motherfucker came riding a bike, and she screamed in wow! She panicked that it happened but thought I never noticed it. Well, men are insecure, they notice everything. I did. And I don't blame her for finding other fuckers sexy, it's her right, but not her right to be with me. If you want me, take care of my insecurities as I do yours. She would joke around saying she kissed a guy she one kissed, and I was supposed to laugh. Truly, I had to pull the plug on my love for her. Some days I woke up deciding not to be stupid, but that's being stupid. I cannot choose a woman from all the women on earth for her to fuck with my ego. Behind every great man there's a great woman, I guess I was never great. I was an insecure little bastard. Well, good luck on her with a man who knows who he is. I am a man. Maybe not the man, but I try my best. I grew up fatherless, always felt worthless, but I try my best. Hope someday I get a lady who will treat me with the respect I deserve. And if I don't get her, too bad for her. “I would rather be alone, than be unhappy.”

A lesson for my sister

My sister was doing the same thing to her boyfriend recently. She would tell him that another admirer of hers wanted to buy her a car. Now her boyfriend can't afford a car, not for himself, let alone her. How was he supposed to feel? “I want him to see that I love him even though he doesn't have what the others have,” she answered. I warned her not to tempt fate. She was making his insecurities worse. I told her to apologise because those seeds were already planted. I told her that if she wants to be treated like a queen, she must first make sure her man feels like a king, then he will act according to his title.

To all the sisters out there

Don't fuck around. Men are meant to be heads, but they won't if you behead them with your silly words and actions. Once love dies, it would only take a miracle to resurrect it. R.I.P to the love that died in me.